How about trying to be accountable to yourself. I know when anyone else tells me what and when to do, I get very resentful. Sobriety has given me a life today that I never had. I have come to know ME in sobriety. Everyone told me what I should do and when I tried to live up to their orders I couldn't so I would just get drunk And disappoint everybody including myself. Bless you. Just hang in there and find out what you want to be. I'm quite sure you never wanted to be an alcoholic and let alcohol and everyone else run your life.

My best thinking is what got me into my alcoholism and it didn't happen over night. Only when I was sick of ME did I have a chance because I no longer put expectations on things.

BOY, DO I HEAR YOU.I HAVE FELT THE JOY OF ALCOHOL FREE BLOOD, BUT ENOUGH ALREADY!! I'M READY TO TIE ONE ON, HELL WITH THE WORLD!! i'm not supposed to say that.............

Today, I hear what you're saying about being accountable to myself. I embarked on this journey of sobriety for myself - so I could feel better. The problem is I feel horrible. I know alcohol is a terrible way to die but, right now, I just don't care.

I'm feeling it too. I am going to be practical. Go to the movies or rent some inspiring chic flics. Start a hobbie, beading is fun. Go for a run. Go get your hair done. Find something to take your mind of it, just for today. I am doing homework and cooking soup as my daughter makes me a necklace. I no I really have no experience but that is how I'm doing it. Make a schedule for the week of things you need to do. I bet there is some stuff thats been neglected. I fed organic plant food to my jungle. Since I'm not drunk I see a lot of things that need organizing in my apartment. I hope this doesn't sound stupid. I am just trying to be tangably effective.

This is why we drank:

"Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinksdrinks which they see others taking with impunity."

AA meetings are a place of fellowship for us who have worked the steps. We are there to share the AA message to those who have ears to listen.

Meetings will not keep you sober. Meetings will not bring you peace. Meetings will not bring you happiness.

What are you seeking?

Guru

Well, tragedy has been averted. I made yet another trip into town (40 minutes) to attend yet another AA meeting. I meet with my sponsor tomorrow. I'm anxious to work the steps so I can feel the peace that others experience.

Good for you!:) Thats what it's all about. The solution is in the steps...