I wanted to say that I went to a meeting wed and thurs night after not going for over a month. I really didn't feel like it at all but I did it anyway because I know it is what I need and is helpful to me. After going, I was so glad I did. I'm always glad I did after going to a meeting. I was honest and everyone was great. I got a few more numbers for rides to other meetings. I'm going tonight with three women to another town for a meeting. That should be refreshing and tomorrow night me and my aa friend Jennifer are going to get a ride to a genesis meeting and dance in another big town outside of here, that should be cool. I want to get to as many stuff as I can in AA. I have never been to a banquet or campout or anything like that yet. I look forward to it this spring and summer. I want to meet alot of new people. After listening to me talk about my work on trying to love myself and trust in God, this one lady at the meeting last night gave me a necklace with a pink crystal stone and said it's for a heart connection or something. Really cool. I love it! That was so nice of her. It was actually an NA meeting last night. Yea I still feel like crap everyday but I'm less depressed and more hopeful. DS helps alot but it really is more helpful to actually be around others in person and talk outloud in front of a group of people. I forgot how it was for a while. So easy to get wrapped up in myself and start isolating. I have cultivating new friendships. Good real friendships too. Something I haven't really had since I was a young teen. I tend to push people away out of insecurity or I tend to befriend the biggest oddball, or mental case in town. Or the one who will lie to me or use me or bring me down. It's nice to be surrounded by people who accept me and lift me up and help me to love myself more. Meetings are cool. I feel it's like God works through others and we help each other that way. I feel more of a connection to God when I sit around in a group of recovering alcoholics and talk about life. Anyways.... Good morning to everyone, have a sweet day and all that happy sappy crap.. hugs
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