I keep having to use alcohol to numb my pain and my thoughts. I've been going through some very rough times, I was suicidal I've been being cyber bullied and hacked very badly and by some very sadistic people, I've been unemployed for a long time, over a year and due to my mental illness I am having a hard time even getting up each day. I feel worthless and hate not being normal. I just want to wake up one day and feel like everyone else. I've lived in isolation and have been drinking alone and even in the dark while on my computer to numb the pain of my life. I've had several breakdowns over the past year. I'm trying to quit using alcohol to numb my pain but it's hard. It seems like it's the only thing that can numb my thoughts and feelings. I've had a very traumatic past and childhood. I'm 27 now an emotional wreck wanting to die and I am at my limit. Any advice would be much appreciated. I need help and feel so powerless over my mental illnesses and my inability to find another outlet to forget about my pain.
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