Yea I'm 12 days today. yippee!!!!!!!Hoping to stay that way really am. I've been up and down alot though god!! stressed about my 15yr old son. irritable and moody. thinking and feeling all kinds of shit. they say you kind of go back to the age when you really started drinking, when you quit drinking and I feel that way. LIke a friggin teenager or something. I'm indecisive as hell too like I can't decide what to do with myself from one minute to the next.. It's hard to figure out what kind of icecream to buy at the store!lol My boyfriend will ask me on friday what I want to do and I'm like at a total loss. My thoughts always go to drinking because that's what i'm used to doing at his house on the weekend and watching movies or something. I'm like I don't know, kinda want to stay home with son and lay around, but don't really want to lay around, don't really want to be around anyone but don't really want to be alone, don't want to drink but don't want to do anything else, but actually do kind of want o go to bar and shoot pool or have fun, but don't really feel up to it cause then it'll make me want to drink. Kinda depressed and tired but don't want to wallow, don't know what I want or think or feel, don't know anything at the moment. And he's like ok..................uh........yea.........I feel crazy. lol but I'm sober. That's a good thing right? It's rough, it really is. Don't know which shoe to put on first you know? been spending alot of time on computer, think I'm getting addicted to this site now. lol. smoking waaaaaaaaay too many cigs making myself sick. Eating too much crap, laying around too much. My dishes need doing. Alot of stuff needs doing. Can't seem to get the gumption to do em though. Guess I gotta force myself to do shit. Was gonna start AA and seeing therapist regularly, canceled that and haven't gone so far. Need do. This site has helped me alot. As long as I've been sober I've been signed up for this site. That's gotta say something right? WEll hoping everyone stays sober too, best wishes, hang in there and I will too......sorry so long winded, talk a little more now too like a crazy weirdo...lol, Angela
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