Pretty darn cool. Seeing newcomers and knowing they are in a spot to start experiencing life how it always should have been, easily pushes my petty little problems my alcoholism balloons into "big deals to the side.
So you're new, and not knowing what to do? Participating I find is key. I know sometimes my participation can be a turn off, and my alcoholism as a trump card can make a mess out of something beautiful, but the consistency of participating, whether it be at groups or in online forums, allows me to hear what I need to hear. The other day someone eluded to the fact that I was negative, and since that point, I've prayed for more positivity. If I would have isolated, and not been opened to help from others, through participating daily in an attempt to mitigate or treat my alcoholism, I might have very well continued down a path of negativity so great it required drinking or doing something I didn't want to do, like stealing, cheating, lying, or hurting someone.
After I committed to participating, and accepting that I was an alcoholic, and did have Alcoholics Anonymous's definition of alcoholism, which is I crave alcohol beyond the ability to say "no" after the first drink, and then obsess about 1000 more drinks above everything important for anyone in life (i.e. the wife, the house, the job, the car, earning an income, etc.), and am unable to both stop or manage my daily life, I was then able to experience the relief that comes from the humility of knowing the truth that drinking will no longer be part of my plan going forward, and that there was tons of help and I was not alone!
Whilst drinking I thought no one was like me, so I isolated and thought about that lie a lot. I thought nobody thought like me, or screwed things up like me, I didn't realize that five minutes down the road, there were people going to a meeting, who were EXACTLY like me both in mind, body, and spirit. Those same people had found a way out to, and they had the answers and still have the answers to this day. All I have to do is consistently appear and listen at the group I go to and I get all the answers I'd ever need in this life. I didn't have to go on sabatical, or pay 30,000 for a rehab near the ocean with massages and a gluten free diet, or even stop working, all I had to do was dedicate an hour a day to listening to people who have a style of life that prohibits a need to take a drink.
Keeping an open mind to AA and the 12 steps, and acknowledging that I was prejudice towards them, and that was hurting their chances of helping me, was what really turned the table on me doing them and seeing what they are truly about. I was a big shot, and still am when not practicing the principles the steps a lot for, so I thought there was no way the important me could ever live a happy life knowing he needed AA and 12 steps to stop drinking. The opposite has come true, and now that I kept an open mind, and continued to participate, I see that when positive, I know AA is nothing but a great friend, and the 12 steps are how God intended me to live life and treat others.
God's intentions are for me to be free, full of joy, honest, and glowing with a loving spirit that sees clearly and helps all. Alcoholism was making me the opposite, it was making me a slave and incarcerated person, sad and depressed all the time, proud of perfecting lies, and dark with clouded energy, with a very selfish and intolerable agenda. Oh how awesome it is to be a recovered man!
Problems are no longer too great, and everything used to be so great and so hard drinking was the only solvent. It was a miserable nightmare. Thank God I kept it simple in the beginning, and life skyrocketed. I simply got up and said a prayer, then read the big book, then went to a meeting, then talked to a sponsor, and for the rest of the day, concentrated on being unselfish and helping others. The prayer took 15 seconds, even though I didn't know who or what I was praying to, the big book reading took 15 minutes, even though my insides were churning and my head was hurting from the words I didn't fully understand, the meeting took an hour, talking to the sponsor took 5 to 10 minutes, and doing something for others throughout the day could take 2 seconds or it could take an hour, but my point with all of that time length description is there is a great myth that staying or gaining recovery steals all of our important time. That is a lie, in fact, God is so cool he allows us to invest such little time and get such a great bargain of life, love, and constant learning in return at levels we never thought us drunks deserved.
If you're new build a bond with him today, or she, or it, whatever you're God is, start praying and building a relationships with it today. My guess is it will then guide you to a group, key you in on a sponsor, allow you the pleasure of doing the steps, then give you the wings you need to soar through life with a new freedom and happiness, like it was supposed to be.