Today,I'm scared because I need to drink,I need to feel sane.I feel like I'm going crazy.I have now been 22 days without,I am use to the regular night sweats,dizziness,feeling like shit,confused and for the most part,non-functional.I've swore off alcohol many times before and went weeks without,of course always giving in.This time is different,I feel constantly scared like I'm being watched as if something or someone is waiting to get me.I hear whispers at night as if two people were standing by my bed having a conversation about me.During the day when I'm @work,sometimes I swear I see dark shadows pass by my office door.I always feel a heaviness around me.I have started AA,been to two meetings so far and it's the only place I've been in 22 days that I did'nt feel scared.I sound crazy,I know!Any advice or support,PLEASE!
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