Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
My son is visiting me this week and tonight after dinner he wanted to go out. He wanted to go have a beer. He is not an alcoholic so to drink for him is not a problem. I went with him because he doesn't know the town. We went to a bar where a friend of mine in the program was playing tonight. We listened to Vic play and my son had his beer. I have no idea what happened. I found myself with a beer in my hand and raised to my lips. Instead of putting it down, I thought of the emotional pain I am in right now and that beer looked even better. I thought to myself, WTF, why not. I put my lips on the rim of the glass and tilted the glass back.
I have not been this close to a drink in a long, long, long time. Some 19 years. The last time was when I was just shy of 6 years sober, again in an emotional pain. My sobriety flashed through my mind, and I came to realize that no one person has that kind of power over me. I put the beer down in front of my son, walked over to Victor and told him I need to talk to him outside. We had a good talk, I came home and called a friend of mine with many years in this program. We talked so more and I am now putting this down here to let all you people know that even the alcoholic with many years in the program is vulnerable to a drink when our guard is down.
What kept me sober tonight? GOD! That has to be the answer. Step 3. Step 11. Step 7. I did not drink because the pain of sobriety still has not become greater than the pain of my last drunk. And until it does I will not drink. And even the great AAguru will drink when the pain of sobriety is greater than the pain of his last drunk. But to those of us, like AAguru, who work a program of recovery, that pain will never be that great.
I have not been this close to a drink in a long, long, long time. Some 19 years. The last time was when I was just shy of 6 years sober, again in an emotional pain. My sobriety flashed through my mind, and I came to realize that no one person has that kind of power over me. I put the beer down in front of my son, walked over to Victor and told him I need to talk to him outside. We had a good talk, I came home and called a friend of mine with many years in this program. We talked so more and I am now putting this down here to let all you people know that even the alcoholic with many years in the program is vulnerable to a drink when our guard is down.
What kept me sober tonight? GOD! That has to be the answer. Step 3. Step 11. Step 7. I did not drink because the pain of sobriety still has not become greater than the pain of my last drunk. And until it does I will not drink. And even the great AAguru will drink when the pain of sobriety is greater than the pain of his last drunk. But to those of us, like AAguru, who work a program of recovery, that pain will never be that great.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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I remember when my mother came for a weekend visit about 2 years ago. I don't know why, but for some reason I wasn't vigilant that weekend as I usually was. That Sunday I took her drinking glass away from my son, who had it to his lips. I took a sip and physically felt the alcohol rush to my finger tips and to my toes. Yet, when I confronted her she denied it. Guess what? If I had not physically felt that I might have believed her because she was that convincing. My son by the way wasn't even 2 yet. After that happened I had my husband take her home and I started thinking about the weekend, there were many signs b4 that which I would have recognized if I were paying attention.
I hope that was a wake up call for you to start paying attention, and thank God you didn't drink.
Happy, what a awful and wonderful possition to be in..... Awful close, but wonderful you remembered once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.
Too many times we hear the stories of those who picked up after years of sobriety and THEY aren't the ones telling the story!!!
I would love to be in the meeting where "YOU" are able tell your story. Thanks for sharing.
Keep comeing back, it works if ya work it.
I just said the serenity prayer for both of us!
"I'm curious to know, why after you made that decission, you felt the need to take advise, to talk about it. It's only an addiction, why does it still consume you?"
I needed to call a man who is a friend and someone like a sponsor to me because as an alcoholic I need to talk about my feelings and what happens to me...If someone else knows than it cannot be a secret. Secrets kill people. It is more than "just only an Addiction." It is a time consuming disease that will kill you if you let your guard down. I let my guard down for just that brief moment. But, again, there was a time that the only thing between me and that drink was something more powerful than any human could be...That was GOD. That was my relationship with HIM. That is why the booze did not win and why I need to let ppl know that they DO NOT HAVE TO DRINK......EVER........AGAIN........
Good job Happy and Joyous and free.
love, devonh