I just recently found this forum. Im celebrating a year sober this month and I am so grateful to be alive today. Its been a long struggle to get here but this time around I jumped in with both feet. I went from being the scared lost child I had always been to surrender and rebirth. I share from the heart, work the steps read the BB over and over. Somewhere along the way I found god and finally seem to understand how far I had fallen only when my he pulled me back from the brink. My problem now is its heartbreaking that alot of people around me dont seem to be on the same path. Content wherever they are in their recovery I seem to have passed them along the road and now gone from the newbie to a man on a spirutal quest to grab everything this program has to offer spirtual, mentally and physically. GOing to the same meetings over and over it saddens me that peole I once respected as there to show me the way dont seem to practice what I have learned. Reaching out and getting others to return calls seems an issue and my network seems lacking over this. I understand I was a mess like many others in early recovery but stuck with it and thought as I got better those arpund would see and rejoice in my new found accomplishments. But the sad truth is the rooms of aa can be like High School 2.0, and sad fact that time in recovery doesnt equal deeper understanding. I deceided to spread my wings hit new meetings and find those in need of help and keep giving back what i was so freely given. I guess that same 5 meetings every week for a year really limits me from such a large pool of potential people to learn grow and help. I can no longer settle as half measures get us nowhere so ill continue this road and trust in God ill find those I can be of service to.
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