I'm 41 now. Thought I had it figured out. Drank in college, but graduated anyway. Spent years afterwards as a closet drinker. At home. Went to work everyday. Made decent money. I still look like I am in my early 30's. I work out and appear normal. FAR FROM IT. I had been living with a wonderful man for the last 7 years. I never had a drink during these 7 years. Yes, he was a recovering addict. He was/is the love of my life. Thought I figured it out. He didnt drink, so I wouldn't have the temptation either. He relapsed last month, and now I am in a tailspin. He is getting help, and on the road to recovery. I am trying and trying, but for the last 30 days, I can not stop drinking. he as moved out of our place, and now doesnt want to talk with me. I kept this from him. I am lost without him. I have isolated myself from all my former friends. Alone.
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