So my aunt died last week. Of lung cancer. I guess I am safe to say that cancer is in my family along with other things. I am numb right now. I also have two uncles who are very sick. I have a big family but unfortunately I love them all. I think that family is #1 in life. I live in a city where a lot of people don't even talk to their family anymore. They can't get ahead if they feel too much I guess. I am a little jealous of those people at this point. Wish I didn't care but there is no way I know to not love my family. And they all keep dying or getting sick! So I'm screwed right? I mean this is going to keep happening. I am going to get really drunk right now. I need to.
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