Hi Everyone well this is a huge day for me. After finally finding strenght to admit to myself I have a drinking problem This is the very first time I am owning my alcoholisism. God how I hate that word!!! The past couple of years for me have seen me turning from what was once a loving,caring person into one that has allowed drink to almost loose me my loving family. Gone from being what I thought was a sociable drinker into one that turned each time there has been upset in my life. turn to the bottle. In the begining it I used it as a crutch that would what I thought take my worries away.Until I would eventually need a drink to help me get through the day. I dont want to make excuses I have to own what Ive done, I have had several problems in my life which as time goes by I hope I will be able to talk about freely. yesterday I went to my Doctor and admitted my illness and openly admitted it to my children.But of course they already knew they had foe a while and the guilt of that will haunt me forever. To see the releif in their eyes that their mum was finally admitting to her fault was plain to see and Thank God so was their love. I would love to talk to others and perhaps we may gain support from one another. I will come on the site daily,Im not sure if Im allowed to put my email address up,but if I am it is Anicea40@aol.com. God help others who feel as I do Many thanks for listening
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