Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm obsessing. Consumed with thoughts of alcohol cravings. Nothing unusual. It has reared it's ugly head several times before. Around the 2 month sobriety period when I've fallen off the wagon AGAIN. But, I found this in the BB pg.152 A VISION FOR YOU. "Unhappy drinkers who read this page will understand." "She fools herself. Inwardly she would give anything to take half a dozen drinks and get away with them. She will presently try the old game again, for she isn't happy about her sobriety. She cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day she will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then she will know loneliness such as few do. She will be at the junping-off place. She will wish for the end." "I know I must get along without liquor, but how can I? Have you a sufficient substitute?" "Yes, there is a substitute and it is vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in AA. There you will find release from care, boredom and worry." So true! Thank you to all you AA's for being here for me in the loneliest period of my life. Without your love & support I would drink again and that to me would equal death. My sobriety is your birthday gift to me and my birthday gift to myself. God Bless. Leibug.
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