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I have just done the stupidest thing in the world. For the past 3 or 4 days now, I've been drinking 4 tall boys (just enough to feed the demon) so that I could make it to work and through each day. Today, something inspired me to find some gratitude and I actually felt a little better, that is until the mail came in. My husband has been having an affair since May and I have been asking him when he was putting his cell phone back on the family plan since he's been telling me for 4 months that it's over. So I opened the cell bill to find that he hasn't done that yet...I guess any excuse will do. I've been gagging all day anyway needing a drink, just waiting until all chores were done so I could do so. Well, I'm an alcoholic who has done some experimenting with drugs although alcohol is my drug of choice. After I drank that fourth one tonite, I started shaking and feeling that it just wasn't enough...so what did I do...I went out and spent my last dime on drugs...knowing I have to go to work tomorrow. This stuff is insane!!!!!!!!!!!
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In other words, now I only have 2 beers left and have to come down off the high I just subjected myself to...........I wish I were dead!!!!!!!!
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You know.........this job of being an alcoholic/addict has become really hard.....wish I could get paid for it :-)
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I'll tell ya'll one thing...come hell or high water...I'll be at an AA meeting Friday night. This shit is ridiculous.
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Come down off your stuff... Get into a detox!

Alcohol and drugs just postpone the inevitable...

The longer we run the worse it gets when we come to face it...

We can always decide to put the shovel down and climb our way up out of the hole...
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I'm so afraid to do that Rob, because my husband is tired of my shit and probably won't tolerate another detox. He already doesn't like my son that is still with us and the other one has left to stay with his real Dad. I am just scared that if I do what I need to do for myself...it'll be the last straw. He has alrealy been "working" Sundays for a month now. I think he's seeing her more often. I just am afraid of what will happen for my son although he already has to put up with my bs.
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i totally understand ur concern for what ur family has put up w/and the fear of hurting or losing a child. thinking u cant just up an go get help and abandon ur family responsibilities. but b4 u can fix or help ne of ur loved ones or ne one else for that matter, u MUST work on u. becuase it sounds as tho the way uve been goin is doin nothing but postponing the inevitiable and slidding farther and farther down a very lg hill. we MUST take care of and love OURSELVES b4 we can do either for ne1 else. @ least the things we so wanna be able to do for our loved ones, when we r in the rite state of mind, then we can think clearly, lose the guilt and get back to life. As in back to actually LIVING life. i hope u get help soon, whether u think so or not u DO deserve it. i will pray 4 u! God Bless-prcdtons2
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Thank you so much for your response. As hard as it is to believe, my occupation is a nanny. It is very hard to put on a happy face and take the responsibility of the most precious things in your boss's life and hide the fact that you have a very major problem like this. My own kids have been accustumed to it since the day they were born. They are 14 year old twin boys now and now one of them is experimenting with smoking on top of asthma. They always said you'd get one to give you as much turmoil as you gave your parents.
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I just want to add that Rob is very straight and to the point. I guess when he saw that I wasnt't responding to going to detox he gave up on me. The fact is that my boss has had her baby that I keep at her parents for a week already. I've just been going there from 3 - 6 every day to see about the 6 year old twins this week. She is a very understanding lady and I've already told her about my husband's infidelity and my drinking binge. What I kept from her was that I've been an alcoholic all my life. She would have never hired me if I had told her up front. I am a good person when I'm not drinking. I only do it like once a month...maybe for a week.
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The point I was trying to make was that she really wanted me to go for help when I told her of the binge. Now, it's like too late or something
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It's never too late to kick your addiction/bad habbits. Ever read "To Kill a Mockingbird?" Mrs. Dubose died with the satisfaction of knowing that she kicked her opium addiction. It just takes willpower. I do realzie that it isn't easy, but do what it takes--whether it is going to AA meetings, rehab or what have you.

Best of Luck!!

JW
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