Ok I need to know if there are others that have problems staying positive and avoiding the stinking thinking. I sit here and I try to tell myself that it's going to be ok and that I can remain sober and that things are going to get better without the alcohol and that the memory is going to come back. I'm trying so hard but the last couple days I have struggled with going back and forth with it's going to be ok and than it goes to it's not going to be ok. I feel like I am on a damn emotional rollercoaster that just wont come to a screeching hault. I don't like the way I feel about all this. I tried to hold true to my faith in God no matter how bad it gets. Sometimes all of this gets me through and some time it don't. I have 23 days sober now and in one more week it's going to be 30 days and I'm very proud of that! I just pray that I can keep it up and not give into the desire to drink! I pray that everyone is ok and thanks so much for being here for me. You do not know how much it has helped me stay sober. Again thank you so very much. Your love and support is greatly appreciated.
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