I'm not sure here what I'm doing, anything I can do to keep myself from self destructive behavior. I had been sober for a year when I moved back to my home state. I have this bad habbit of hitting the bottle whenever I start thinking about losing my wife. The rest of my problems I can handle without getting drunk. When I start thinking about how I treated my wife and the thought of losing her I end up getting drunk. Its been three months since I have had a drink. I haven't been drunk in about six months. Now I finally realize I may have lost her. Last sat. nite I almost killed myself. I was sober. I'm not sure if I can do anything to save my marriage, there may be a slim chance. I really don't have an urge to drink. I just don't want to screw up any more of my life.
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