I'm not sure here what I'm doing, anything I can do to keep myself from self destructive behavior. I had been sober for a year when I moved back to my home state. I have this bad habbit of hitting the bottle whenever I start thinking about losing my wife. The rest of my problems I can handle without getting drunk. When I start thinking about how I treated my wife and the thought of losing her I end up getting drunk. Its been three months since I have had a drink. I haven't been drunk in about six months. Now I finally realize I may have lost her. Last sat. nite I almost killed myself. I was sober. I'm not sure if I can do anything to save my marriage, there may be a slim chance. I really don't have an urge to drink. I just don't want to screw up any more of my life.
Posts You May Be Interested In
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??