How is a sponser supose to be.... i mean what are they supose to be doing with someone? are they to be mean and while being straight forward... like i mean i know being assertive and up right honest is a good thing and that all of us need the honesty and straight forwardness.. but, when my sponser wants to know whats going on she shuts me down.. I am just over 90 days sober and i am going through some terrible things in my head and body... this is my first time without any form of some find of drug in my system in 38 years.... i am proud of that and yet feel terrible and she doesn't understand... we have not done the steps... i think we are becoming more like a mother daughter relationship... as i seek a mother figure and she seeks the forgiveness from her children... now, i know that noone is a perfect parent we have all made mistakes... but, is that not all part of our recovery to make amends for what we have done to the ones we love including ourselves.... i am just so confused as to what i need to be doing.... my sponser also when she is out goes and get me applications for work when right now i can;t even function on the step work and having a hard time with being drink free and drug free.. (meaning pills)) and being a parent..please tell me is my thinking worped or what as this lady is doing her best to help me.... maybe i am being way to stuborn.. but i thought a sponser was to help me get through the steps?
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