Hey everyone, I'm new since yesterday. I just need to know I'm not alone with my problem. I can't seem to label myself an alcoholic. It's hard to realize I have a problem but I need to. My problem is bingeing. I've read a few of you out there probably understand me. I can go all week without a thought of alcohol but when the weekend comes, it's like I need a release from reality a bit. A bad weekend goes like this: Friday me telling myself to control it. By late night I've usually gone past that. Saturday morning I'll get some drinks in to sooth the hangover and then it tends to go all day into the night. Sunday, pretty much a repeat of Saturday and then I spend about three days trying to recover,shakes, headache, depression, nausea. I'll tell myself after a bad weekend that it won't happen again and usually I can "control" it for a few weeks and I always slip again. This cycle has gone on for about 9 years. I'm now married for two years and have a 16 month boy. My family is in jeapordy now and they are the most important things in the world to me. I've kept telling myself I could do it on my own but that rarely lasts more than a few weeks until I really slip again. I'm looking into antabuse again, which I tried years ago. I'm also going to go to counseling. I'm also hoping to find a few of you to chat with as well. I'd really like a few friends on here that understand what I'm going through. I'm just not sure how this whole thing works yet. Take care all, and good luck.
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