today im in a good place and i want to thank everyone who commented on my post yesterday. all the comments helped me in different ways. i have an interview for a job today and its weird im scared and want to crawl back in bed. my ISM tells me" u wont get the job anyway so why waste your time" i am very glad to have this program and my HP today working in my life. i have to tell myself whether or not i get the job just rying shows growth and that is new for me. when i first heard of AA and the steps, i figured well i could accept i was an alcoholic and i didnt see the problem, it was everyone else who had a problem with me drinking. today i can see what a mess my life had become and what a mess it still is, only today i have tools to work with so i dont add resentments and i can work on me so one day ill be able to live a life that im proud of. im am so blessed today and when i take the time to get out of my head i can see all the blessings. imm doing a fourth step and to be honest it sucks, even though we are supposed to look at the good and the bad i get stuck on the bad, i have to realize none of us r all bad. wow, im really screwed up, my way of thinking, however im sober and that is half the battle. i hope everyone has a blessed day and remember even if your having a bad day "this too shall pass". i hang onto those words very tightly some days.
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