Has anyone, once sober, experienced feeling evil? I am recently sober due to a catastrophic event. My whole adult life I always thought that I was a kind, caring person. Now that I'm not drinking anymore, I feel like that was a lie. That I wasn't all that kind after all and I may be in fact evil. I've never physically hurt anyone, but I feel that for my entire adult life that I was two-faced. That I was not as honest or kind as I convinced myself that I was.
I was wondering if anyone has felt this. I have been very cruel to myself and others at times during drunken episodes. Not physically, but just by not really seeing them. Not being present. Hiding the drinking. Even my friend if 15 years that I used to date, I thought I was always there for her. But now I am starting to see that I never truly was.
I’m curious how everyone starts or ends their day. I know some people swear by their routine. What advice do you have for us beginners?
My dear DS,I do not need 3,666 notifications from DS. What is going on that y'all cannot delete? I have over 16,000 anxiety members. Has anyone here thought about how long that would take to delete????