Don't do it!!!!! I gave in once and it cost me ten years of my life and all that I loved. Please, phone someone, find a meeting, anything, but don't drink. Life without booze in it can be so beautiful and full of wonderfull things. I just takes a little time for sobriety to feel "normal".
I've said it before: "I wouldn't trade my best day drunk for my worst day sober".
Hang in there, it gets different!

It's hard to tell an alcoholic anything, cause they do it anyway, I know i did tell i was done. When the pain get's bad enough you will stop. In the meantime take care.

Alcohol (especially in large quantities) is *very* bad for your body. It also can make you do dangerous and stupid stuff. In addition it makes you feel lousy. Why would anyone willingly ingest a large amount of such a thing? Are you in AA? I couldn't have done it w/o them.

Honey we have a disease that tells us we don't have a disease. Life is beautiful if you just give it a chance. One day at a time could be one minute at a time, even one second if that's what u need.
Have you tried AA? There's a lot to be said about drunks helping other drunks stay sober. Who would understand you better than someone who's been there?

I did AA and I recovered . I dont fight the drink the urge was removed. SO in my exp if the pain is bad enough you might want to try aa if not good luck.

Icant tell you why youre doing it, or not to to drink. I can only tell you why Im doing it. I want my life back, I dont want to die a horrible death, etc.,

When I feel like you, I go for a walk, read a book, clean the bath, through plates at the fence, anything to break the cycle of mental obsession. PLEASE stick with it and let us know how youre doing x

Please remind yourself of why you are doing it. Think about all of the times you have hurt yourself, embarassed yourself, and that you are better off without it. That's what I'm working on..

DON'T GIVE IN!! It passes! Trust me. It's your disease lying to you, try to kill you. Think about all the pain you've been through. It is worth it? Does it help? No, it just makes it worse. It's normal to think about driking. The obsession is part of the disease. Just don't give in. Your thoughts of drinking don't have to turn into actiom. Just don't drink today. Just today. Go to a meeting and ask for help. Don't drink, and you will never have to go through this again. You will never have to get sober again!

when i want a drink i keep reminding myself that i will die if i carry on, alcoholism is a slow painful death

Find a meeting. I'm struggling today also.YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Keep it up. ")

Do the steps, when I did step 1/2/3 I had any cravings removed, and to this day 2yrs in Dec. I have not once wanted to drink. If you work it, do the steps, get a sponsor you will not have to suffer so much. Good Luck, go to meetings, and don't take the first drink.

Feel like shit... remorsefull... saying sorry....AGAIN!... kicking the hell out of yourself... never again... what is wrong with me... my family hates me... I hate me... etc...etc...etc...

This is your tomorrow if you drink today! and this is mild...you know that!

Call your HP! and let Him have this! Give it to Him! Hand it over!

Thank you everyone for the support. I had a bad night but I didn't do it. I had a shower then just went to bed. Thank you all again. :)

Hang in there!

Crazy the way this stuff plays havoc with our mind, why on Earth we want to be reminded of the utter hell and destruction we came from remains a mystery to me.

But as a good alcoholic myself, I went through the same mind destroying crap.

As we go along we get stronger, the more we are sober the more we appreciate the reasons we do not drink.

The main thing is don't come here, call a friend go to a meeting do anything but pick up that first drink.

The last thing any of us needs is reminding, we just need to learn how to live life sober, and put those terrible yaers behind us.

You will, you can, just hang in there it is truly worth it believe me

Thinking of you, good luck

Trickey