Tomorrow I will hope to start at the hospice doing service. Being a shaman is doing so well... so of course now I'm depressed. I have a question that the Big Book doesn't explain... why when we get to the point of success do we tend to withdraw and get depressed. Think about it... a lot of us relapse just before the first day of the "BIG" job, right before our weddings, etc. I have seen it over and over. why are we incapable of enjoying what we earn sometimes? I am so happy most days.. but tomorrow I will be "let down' if my personality and thinking are the same as they were every other time. It's lonely at the top has new meaning when I think about that. Is it the whole 'thrill of the chase"? Anybody know? Does any body else relate?
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