As an active alcy i would reach out for help and as soon as someone said something that hurt my feelings(even if it was true) i would get pissed off get offensive and never speak to them again. Usually go get drunk to try and hide from the truth they gave me. I was selfish and self centered as all get out.I never cared about anyones feelings but mine.If i was getting hurt emotionally i would just draw into a shell and drink the pain away. (or so i thought) The hell with there feelings just because i dont talk to them i am protecting my self and my feelings> BULLSHIT that is selfishness at its finest. Who do you think you are hurting? You are hurting the other person and dont care! SELFISHNESS, How mant times did i drink up the grocery money gas money or bill money in general? Quite a few actually just so i could have a good time, the hell with any one else that lived in the house i was just SELFCENTERED enough to think they didnt matter.I have met a few people here like that, That are selfish self centered and hateful and just are not ready to change. So dont change go ahead and go do some more research. I will keep praying going to meetings and helping others. I will listen to my sponsor and other AA members (even when it pisses me off) I will continue to do step work and pray for you. By doing this i will still be here for you when you finally hit bottom and truly want help.
God Bless each of you
God Bless each of you
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