Even though I woke up and am having fun once again with my friends on this site today i had a rough night. I was either having bad dreams about loosing my kids in a crowd (they're adults now)And then I would wake up from that and this terrible fear would come over me. Fear of being alone, fear of dying. I never had any thought about dying until my grandkids came along. And now I think about it,well not alot but too much for me. it's like I never want to leave these babies. OK Now reading back on this I'm sounding pretty WACKED. And then the worries came last night about bills that are due two weeks from now and not sure if I will have the $. That sure wasn't living one day at a time. No that was two weeks in advance. Needless to say I didn't have a very restfull night and am tired now. I have to work tonight too so a nap will be in order. So I'm glad I woke up to my happy friends on here. Thanks Lace. Love you all. Julie
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