Through the many years of my active alcoholism i created a great deal of resentment, hatred, shame in my life. Most all of these were spurred by some sort of character defect which i had aquired or picked up at some time in my life. The 4th and 5th step of AA are designed for us to unload or confess these resentments to a person we choose to discuss them them with. These steps are inspired by the scripture which says,( confess your sins to one another and pray for one another for the faithful fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much) Bill stated that those that dont do these steps thouroughly have a much greater chance of relapsing. As we unload this garbage we begin to feel as if the weight of the world has been lifted from us and that we can once again look people in the eyes and talk to them. It is not just AA that does this but also the almost 2000 groups that have been given the twelve steps to use. If you havent done this or are interested in doing it go on line to the big book of AA and read the chapter entitled how it works. Personally if i wouldnt have done this i know i would be drinking today. would like to hear how it did for others
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