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Hi guys. I was 23 days sober. Unfortunately I did relapse Nov. 19/07, yesterday afternoon. My spouse who I love, stabbed me in the back fiquratively speaking. She hurt me so much that all I wanted to do was numb myself. So I ended up drinking 3 liters of my sweet vodka that she had bought days before. I drank until I passed out. I had 6 liters here.
I still cannot believe how she betrayed me so easily.
When I woke up around 5pm, I just cried myself silly. Then I went to my on-line AA meeting.
They were amazing. They still accepted me and encouraged me to stay. There were alot of new comers which is great. We discussed the Doctor's Opinion and God/HP.
I am a perfect example about the Obsession of the mind. And that first drink which brought on the allergic reaction to continue to drink.
I know that I shouldn't beat myself up. And keep in mind that today is a new day.
Well yes it is a new day, but it will bring on changes that I don't want too.
Only time will tell, how this day will be. Some of you are probably thinking that I shouldn't dwell on what could happen. I should dwell on right now in the moment.
Well, now you all know how desperate I was to forget/numb myself to my reality yesterday.
Well, here I go again to day 1. I know I need to seize the moment and live the teachings of the big book and the steps.
Thank you for listening to my rantings.
I will get right back up. I need to find my inner strength to do so.
I still cannot believe how she betrayed me so easily.
When I woke up around 5pm, I just cried myself silly. Then I went to my on-line AA meeting.
They were amazing. They still accepted me and encouraged me to stay. There were alot of new comers which is great. We discussed the Doctor's Opinion and God/HP.
I am a perfect example about the Obsession of the mind. And that first drink which brought on the allergic reaction to continue to drink.
I know that I shouldn't beat myself up. And keep in mind that today is a new day.
Well yes it is a new day, but it will bring on changes that I don't want too.
Only time will tell, how this day will be. Some of you are probably thinking that I shouldn't dwell on what could happen. I should dwell on right now in the moment.
Well, now you all know how desperate I was to forget/numb myself to my reality yesterday.
Well, here I go again to day 1. I know I need to seize the moment and live the teachings of the big book and the steps.
Thank you for listening to my rantings.
I will get right back up. I need to find my inner strength to do so.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
23 days sober - Great News, but why did your Partner stock up booze for you when they knew you were giving up, did they want you to fail ???
My first rule is no booze in the house, except at Xmas (friends & Family) and maybe a special occasion, what is left I give away on the day or the following day, why leave temptation in my way.
I told my friends & family, no drink thank you very much and everybody honours and understands my request.
Sometimes a Partner can help you fail, because they are scared of the new You, they are afraid that they could lose you if you are well, so they try to keep you right where you are, hence maybe the stab in the back.
Stay strong be firm, if someone brings alcohol, tip it down the sink or give it away, it may be money, but it will cost a lot more having it around.
Don't play with temptation, its dangerous as you have just learnt.
Welcome back, don't worry most have been there, relapsed myself, just become stronger from it, if that Vodka was not there, you may have rode the storm, learn from our slips and it gets better.
Good luck with the rest of your journey
Trickey
Don't beat yourself up over the relapse, it is very counter productive and only pushed me further into the pity pot.
Suggestion, get rid of the rest of the booze. Don't drink it, you know and I know it will only push you further into that horrible place, isolation, condemnation, desperation, contemplation, temptation, a place we are all desperate to escape.
I don't know if you have a sponsor, if you don't get one. If you do speak to them quickly.
Having a sponsor has been a tremendous help to me, and Ive only had him for 6 days and already it is making a difference.
I really wish you well pawn and hope you get back on track quickly.
By the way you were not ranting you were sharing what is going on in your life right now. I also admire your honesty, you didn't have to tell anybody you had relapsed. You chose to do so which, to me, demonstrates to all your honesty, and also a desire to get well for this disease a day at a time.
Like I said I really do wish you well.
I'm a little concerned about the amount you consumed; 3 liters of vodka is an absorbitant amount. Most people would die b4 consuming that much, if you start to feel the shakes, heart palpitations or excessive perspiration please call 911. Most people don't realize the seriousness of withdrawal, it could lead to seizures or worse. Best wishes to you, I hope to see you around.