I've been sober in TN 151/2 years and diagnosed as Bipolar with PTSD and Anxiety Disorder for many years. Go to meetings, in therapy and take prescribed meds religously. I've had set backs through out the years, but seemed to be able to bounce back after a couple of months and without relapse. However, the past 6 months I've been on the verge of relapse and my psychiatric symptoms are out of control plus I have developed other physical health issues. I don't do well with life changing events. None of my recovery tools seem to be working! I battle with feelings of desperate hopelessness and can't find a way out of this negative attitude. I am so sick and tired of even hearing myself talk or write about it. I can't connect spiritually, even though I've tried to "act as if". Any E,S&H would be very much appreciated, especially anyone who has been through this and made it through it alive(LOL)
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