"Just don't drink today,it'll pass."
It's what I've been told so many times.It does pass for that day,yet the day after and the day after that,the desire never subsides,it grows stronger until it beats me again,again and again.I know this is how I will die.I'm tired of fighting this,I'm tired of always being optimistic,tired of waiting for the day when the urge will pass,when I can awake to a new day and not curse the sunlight that shines through my bedroom blinds in the morning.
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My psyche seems a little dishoveled lately with the second restart (day 6) of my recovery in two weeks. A general feeling of restlessness. I usually have a fairly strong sense of direction and now feeling a bit rudderless. Can't seem to make decisions. Feel like I'm doing too much thinking and not enough doing. Will make a consciencious effort to be more proactive starting today and try...
I'm going through steps and trying to live in this hour of this day and so far it's going well only 16 minutes left and then I'll start again this is all I can manage right now so hopefully it's good enough
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