Well, my last post talked about the fact that I was ready and willing to go into a 90 day treatment program. And, I still am in that head space. Only now, I learn that b/c of my divorce and the upcomings battles that will entail, my lawyer says I would be seriously forfeiting my rights if I go away to rehab. right now. That is not to say that I won't go at all - I just have to wait until certain filings are complete, financial disclosures are complete, etc. The family law atty. is working together w/ my DUI atty. and this is what they both tell me. So, I am here, struggling to stay sober - going to meetings (but, to be honest, drinking a little bit too). My husband will move out of our house at the end of August which is going to make my life so much easier. He will have my girl for a while, and I have accepted that. I will have to focus 100% on recovery!! I have come to the conclusion that the more I slip and drink and allow this disease into my life, the more power it gives my husband - and he is a major control freak. So, I guess subconsciously he wants me to stay in the disease, so he can be in a position of control (?)... Anyway, I will be around for a few more weeks and just wanted to give you all the update. Please pray for me!!!
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