I've been a pretty consistant drinker for about 5 years now..Id spend all week at work counting down until friday hit & I'd go on a weekend bender with the boys & have a great time..as im getting older (26 now) im seeing its not the same as it used to be. one of my friends just finished rehab, the rest all have girlfriends & rarley drink anymore..i seem to be the only one who still seems to think theres a party to be had. I can go weeks with out drinking & I'll reward myself with a weekend bender, then i feel any progess i thought i had made is flushed down the toilet. I disapoint my best friend over & over again telling her things are changing when they really arent..I feel I need to stop drinking. Yet I still like drinking..i crave beer on a beautiful day..i completely contradict myself.
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