Hi friends:) So, this weekend i have some free time and would like to go to a meeting. I am scared.I have been to a couple before with my mom & step dad and find that its an ultra emotional experience for me. the last one i attended i wad 15 and left bawling and cried til i fell asleep. I have so many backed up feelings & issues revolving around AA/drinking/sobriety that when i get in there i just start crying.(usually before i reach the door) I try to control some, but its really intense. meditation techniques pretty much go out the window, it hits this nerve and i'm blubbering and gushing helplessly. usually i don't cry. this maybe part of the puzzle. i want to cry and let it go but its comes out so dramatically.i think a little mantra along the way will help some but i want to be prepared. i'm sure its nothing new, crying at meeting, but i scare myself when it hits that nerve & loose it. i'm not sure what to expect from others. or how to turn it down. this is a huge step for me and i'm so scared. kind of silly. everyone cries i know but why does mine have to be so loud and snotty;) any advice?
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