I was at a meeting this morning and a new guy came in fresh out of detox. He is in counseling and his counselor told him that he has the power of choice wehter to drink or not. I still after all these yrs of being sober am amazed at the delusion some ppl still have concerning the power of choice of wether I will drink or not today. The BB makes it very clear that if you are alcoholic you have lost the power fo choice concerning the drink and we never get that back. Power of choice implies that I have the power to keep myself sober. That my will power should be able to exert itself and keep me sober. ANyone who says this or thinks this has no exp with being a alcoholic of the hopeless variety. There was many a morning I came to resolved to never drink again filled with shame and anguish from the previous nights events only to end up after work finding my car driving itself to the beer store to get done again. This happened over and over till I was nearly dead back in aa again when a guy named george took me thru the Bb and showed me that although I could exhibit will power in other areas of my life will power would be of no avail concerning the choice of wether to drink or not. That if I was the real alcoholic described in the BB my power would have to come from god if I was to stay sober. I found that by seeking Gid thru the 12 steps havent gottne drunk since and in light of circumstances most would not be able to stay sober thru like serious injuries bankruptcy divorce and kids getting hurt. It says in our BB that if were alcoholic we have lost the power of choice and we never get it back I like that and for me it means that I will always need god to stay sober and it is that simple for me. Hopefully the new guuy will call me and we can go thru the steps out of the BB so he can recover too we shall see.
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