This morning I went to a 7 am AA meeting and it was just such a nice meeting. I actually go to this particular meeting a few times a week (when I can get out of bed and out the door), but today was a little different - - I had this distinct recognition of the presence of "grace" in that room. I felt like I wanted to be part of it. I rarely share at meetings and I didn't share today, which leads me to my other experience: I felt like I have been an outsider peering in the window at these AA meetings. I mean obviously I am in the room and sitting with the group, but in terms of where I am mentally, I just feel like an onlooker. I feel like I am looking in the window when I really want to be walking through the door. I want to get a piece of that grace I felt. So, I don't know how to get to that point where I really truly feel that I am part of it, I guess I just keep going to meetings and definitely don't drink. But, has anyone else ever felt like this??
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