Okay so I have been sober 70 days now and when I first got sober back in early Nov. I was completely convinced that I needed to be going to AA. Then after about 10 days sober I left the country for 2 months on a planned vacation...had been planned since July. So while I was gone was only able to get to 2 AA meetings and survived. Now I have been to a couple since getting home a couple days ago and I am really not convinced anymore I am an alcoholic. Maybe i was freaked out and jumping to conclusions or something else? Anyway it is seriously causing confusion in my life. I want to drink but am scared to and yet am scared to fully jump 100% into sobriety. I think I just need to choose one side of the fence and jump off. I don't really know and someone suggested I post on here and see what people said.
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