This is very hard to even join this site even knowing that this is a much better way to deal with "the need, the want" to have a drink so bad right now. I've always dealt with my problems by drinking the pain and fear away, but the past few weeks I'm trying a new approch "sober". Due to the fact that my life was out of control. I cut down on the drinking and got hooked on pain pills. Now I'm off both for today...while I'm facing many difficult past and present problems. I don't know if I can do it. I feel so helpless, tears flowing, heart pounding so loud trying to convience myself that one sip of even a beer would make me feel "o.k." and that I can continue onto tomorrows jorney. I'm sorry if I'm rambling..I don't know what to do. I do not having anyone to reach out to. thanks
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