My sober date is Sept 30th. And today was very difficult to not drink. In fact, I tried to drink tonight but fate just happened to be against my efforts and none of my plans worked out. Which I am thankful for because I will actually be not hungover Saturday morning, which hasn't happened in a very long time. I am happy to be waking up healthy and not with my head in the toilet throwing up my guts out. But man did I want to drink today! This whole weekend is gonna be a struggle. I always drank to calm my anxiety over being alone. No family, no husband, no kids. The anxiety I feel every weekend when I know I have nothing to do but be alone is overwhelming. So I drink till I black out. Then stay sick the rest of the weekend which is fine by me cause at least while I am being sick I am not thinking about how alone I really am. So this is my first weekend facing this overwhelming anxiety without alcohol. I pray this gets easier with time.
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