Hi everyone, I'm new to this group. This is the first day I've admitted to myself that I have a severe problem and need support. I know I've been a problem drinker since 14 but now it's gotten to the point where I believe it's severe dependence. Ive had a really bad year and it's become a habit. My therapist would describe me as a functioning alcoholic as I'm very successful at work and meet the needs of my family. However, I need to drink daily. I drink and drive. I have to have 2 drinks before I get home after work. And probably about 2 to 4 times a month I drink so much that I engage in extremely risky behaviors. The other night I stayed out until 4am and drove home really drunk. I was all over the road and even feel asleep a few times. I'm scared and I don't want to live my life like this anymore but it's hard to begin. I told myself today would be the day that I stop drinking but I'm so tempted to just have one glass of wine. I need words of encouragement and support and I need to know how to get through this. Drinking is so much a part of our family culture.
I like cotton candy, caramel apples with nuts, popcorn, funnel cakes, elephant ears, cheese nachos. Of course I don't eat all of them when I go to the fair I choose what I'm in the mood for that they have. Usually 1 thing. I do like those big salty pretzels also I like mine with yellow mustard. Some times I'm in the mood for a good hot grillled hot dog with yellow mustard and sweet relish. Or a...