I recently hit rock bottom, last night actually! My boyfriend and I went to a get together with some of his friends, Ive hand a problem with vodka previously so made a dicision to strickly stick to drinking beer. When I drink liquor I get very mean and abusive towards my boyfriend, and the worst thing is that I never remember my actions the next day. So I stuck to beer last night, starting to feel good, I thought I could handle a glass of wine, 4 glasses later the meaness and anger comes pouring out in front of everybody! My boyfriend is soo fet up with the way I get, I love him and want to make my drinking habbits go away. But I cant control myself when Iam around other people drinking, i cant stand it! How is this going to work, i wish I could just control myself when Im drunk, its not that I need a drink everyday, i just take it too far when I do drink.
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