Hi everyone. Well lets see. I dont drink every day or even every week. IUp until about 7 years ago, I barely drank. I dont crave it. I dont have days where I cant wait to have that drink. What I do do is, go out mabey 3 times a month and drink...sometimes I stay home and drink. I dont always get blasted but there have been far too many times that I have and have done things that Im terribly ashamed of. I spend days kicking myself and hating myself until a week or so later ehen that feeling lessons and I find myself out there partying it up yet again.When I drink, I feel free, happy, unafraid...you name it..that uninhibitedness that we dont usually have. I have a hard time stopping sometimes because I dont want that feeling to stop. The next day or two is spent recovering and bereating myself..thats if I even remember everything I did. Im worried that I may lose verything I hold dear to me If I continue to do this. Im cold turkey right now and start counceling today. Ive also joined an online AA group...Im not sure Im an alcoholic or what...Im definetly a problem drinker...I dont have cravings...I just dont stop when I start. I dont want to do it again.
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