I was doing so well this morning, finished my house chores, read, journaled, called a friend, cooked ( yuck ). Guess i am overtired, all of a sudden...bam...these negative thoughts haunting me. I try to get rid of them, but i get stuck on stupid. I am unable to focus on my recovery, which is only a few days. Not only that, i am overeating, which is probably why these thoughts bother me. The thoughts are mostly jealousy...over women that has no comparison to me. I don't get it! LOL...is it because they don't care and i do? i guess they are better looking than me, better talkers, whatever. Why didn't my husband stay w/ them, if they are. Why come back crying to me and saying he is sorry, that he loves me too much to give me up. Is it the booze talking and making him act like he is a 18 yr. old stud. He says he can take it or leave it, the booze. I don't think so. I tried to tell him we have to quit, i can't take it anymore...that it is not me..it's killing me. I guess i would do alright staying sober...IF these negative thoughts leave me alone. LOL. sounds like i am in denial and waiting for my next drink. IF...only...:( Any comments, suggestions is appreciated.
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