I am almost 11 years sober and have found myself over the last several weeks wanting to have a drink. One day I actually had the rum in the shopping cart at the store ready to take it home. I had my three year old daughter with me and I realized I couldn't do this because of my children.
Last week I called an old aa sponser to talk me out of it and the same again yesterday.
Things have been really stressful for me. We moved to a new home. My dad was serious ill for almost a month. And I am less than a month from delivering my third child. I am trying to deal with the stress but all the changes with the house and the anxiety of giving birth again. I also have my own accounting business and I am so stressed about keeping up with it and taking care of a newborn. I can not go back to it because of the baby and I promised myself my children would never see my drunk.
was doing ok and working out and then hurt my elbow really bad a week ago. It’s not getting better and the pain is all the time. I take 8 advils a day and what really gets me is I’m not able to workout. This has me spiraling. My brain has basically two thoughts. Drink or shoot myself. This is crazy but it’s my thinking right now. My wife has zero compassion and actually ignores me when I...
Life’s tough but it is what we make of it ...... the easy way for us alcoholics to get through these times is to take the plug out of the jug and stumble through relishing the fuzziness and haze of drink. I’m watching my husband deteriorate daily and it breaks my heart to see him struggling with the simplest of tasks. It would be so easy to hide my fear behind the bottle in order to numb the...