
Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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I guess I really know what I should do but I am really scared today and I haven't slept at all. I have (once again) decided to get sober/healthy but this time I went to my doctor and turned myself in. I was a new patient with this MD and I actually told the truth about the amount of alcohol I drank and my feeble attempts to stop and my stints in rehab. I had the lab work done and all. It shoud a small elevation of liver enzymes (not good) and on physical exam the MD could feel that my liver was indeed enlarged though soft (also not good but could be worse)
I have some medical background and I know thid is not what should be happening but as a bi-polar depressivie (under treatment) I still am having a hard time making myself come to grips with what is demonstrably damage to my body.
I am generally considered smart but I just can't seem to motivate myself to act favorably on my own behalf which of course makes no sense. I am supposed to go for an ultrasound to see just how enlarged my liver is (or heart for that matter) and still I went and bought a bottle of vodka today. I have never actively tried suicide, but this has got to be the next best thing!!! Has anybody ever gone through this ridiculousness and how did you kick yourself in the head to get past it on th right path???
I have some medical background and I know thid is not what should be happening but as a bi-polar depressivie (under treatment) I still am having a hard time making myself come to grips with what is demonstrably damage to my body.
I am generally considered smart but I just can't seem to motivate myself to act favorably on my own behalf which of course makes no sense. I am supposed to go for an ultrasound to see just how enlarged my liver is (or heart for that matter) and still I went and bought a bottle of vodka today. I have never actively tried suicide, but this has got to be the next best thing!!! Has anybody ever gone through this ridiculousness and how did you kick yourself in the head to get past it on th right path???
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Look for the # to the AA hotline in your local phone directory. Find a meeting today and raise your hand and say you're new. You've turned your BiPolar over to a doctor, now it's time to turn your alcoholism over to a higher power.
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