I responded to a thread yesterday, and was really anti AA. Looking back I shouldnt of been so judmental. I have friends who jump from town to town to go to different meetings. Then I have some who just feel uncomfortable going to them. I guess the bottom line here is if it works for you then go for it. Yesterday I guess I was a lil mad. It just seems that sometimes people seem to know the answers to everything, you trust in those answers, then they dont work. And then you feel let down. I have tried AA but for me its uncomfortable. Thats just me. I have stayed off the booze, occupied my time with positive things, tried to help some of my friends here, started being more of a " real " person instead of the " fake " person I was while drinking. I have done everything right, and gained alot of friends in the long run. But lastnight my Dr's office tried calling me, and I wouldnt take the call. Normally they send my lab results in the mail. So when they called I knew something was wrong. This morning my suspicions were comfirmed. Evidentally my " biliruben" levels are elevated. It makes me mad because I am only 30 years old, and have tried to do everything right. But I feel its too late. No I dont want to drink cause thats what got me to where I am now. I guess what I am trying to say is anyone who reads this do whatever it takes to be sober. If AA doesnt work dont give up. There is alot of other things that will help. Again my appologies for being so judgmental about AA. I was just mad that after everything I had tried to accomplish, was defeated so easily. But I wont give up, I can promise you that!
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