Hello everyone I just wanted to let you know that my Mom passed away on Easter Day. I had to go out of state that day so I had no access to a computer.I just got back home yesterday and thought I would let you all know. She has been suffering for so long in the nursing home for the past 7 yrs. now so in a way it is a blessing that she is in a much better place. Still my heart is totally broke and I feel so empty. I made it through without drinking and the support of family, friends and all, yet I feel so empty inside I am afraid I might crack and I'm scared. I know that she would like to see me stay sober and that she loved me very much. I am trying to focus on keeping busy and good thoughts but sometimes I feel like I am in such a trance it seems like I am drugged or something. She was a fighter tho and I have to be one too. I stayed with my Brother and his wife for a few days and they were very supportive and also my youngest son. If it weren't for them I don't know what I would of done really. I took a bus to Ohio and I felt so lost on the bus going down for 9 hrs. but coming back I had my son with me and felt alot better. I have to get through this and I know it's gonna take some time but right now I am hurting alot so please keep in touch with me.