Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Now it is the sixth day of sobriety and I've attended seven AA meetings. I jones for meetings like I used to jones for alcohol. I want to know more rather than drink more. Hey, and no horrendous hangover.
I was scared to death. I mean I saw my own death when I looked up Alcoholism on the internet about a week ago, blotto. I got real sober with that. The 800 number dude told me it could be an end like eventually I'll run out of alcohol in a blackout and wake up in jail facing vehicle manslaughter charges too. Oh lovely, the fate worse than death. I would kill myself if I found out I hurt someone else like that. Like many Alcoholics, I have always had social anxiety, always felt different so I avoid groups. The fear of death or gads, the other fate, overrode that social fear for once. I guess everyone has a different bottom but my God, I don't even want to risk that kind of bottom.
I am a compulsive cleaner and I have woken up with a terrible hangover, and my whole house is clean. Nobody else here so, I can do lots of things completely brain dead. So, in my deluded thinking, I thought doing something I wouldn't sober was out of the question. I would or have never drink and drive. I have never run out, tho.
Anyway, so much mind benders rather than alcohol benders. It really does help to listen to other alcoholics in recovery. Like listening to myself talk. Like finding a herd of blacksheep. All these missing pieces. The only kind of drunk I haven't been is a dead drunk or jail bird. I'll pass, tyvm.
Love, Mo
I was scared to death. I mean I saw my own death when I looked up Alcoholism on the internet about a week ago, blotto. I got real sober with that. The 800 number dude told me it could be an end like eventually I'll run out of alcohol in a blackout and wake up in jail facing vehicle manslaughter charges too. Oh lovely, the fate worse than death. I would kill myself if I found out I hurt someone else like that. Like many Alcoholics, I have always had social anxiety, always felt different so I avoid groups. The fear of death or gads, the other fate, overrode that social fear for once. I guess everyone has a different bottom but my God, I don't even want to risk that kind of bottom.
I am a compulsive cleaner and I have woken up with a terrible hangover, and my whole house is clean. Nobody else here so, I can do lots of things completely brain dead. So, in my deluded thinking, I thought doing something I wouldn't sober was out of the question. I would or have never drink and drive. I have never run out, tho.
Anyway, so much mind benders rather than alcohol benders. It really does help to listen to other alcoholics in recovery. Like listening to myself talk. Like finding a herd of blacksheep. All these missing pieces. The only kind of drunk I haven't been is a dead drunk or jail bird. I'll pass, tyvm.
Love, Mo
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
That is just a way to conceal alcoholism, mostly from myself. Besides, I've been running a bar since I was born taking care of drunks. I am my own child of alcoholic, enabler, protector, and drunk. Nobody is better at it than another drunk. I would not parentify my children, force my partner to enable my addiction or allow others to make excuses for my own actions or emotions. That would be the line that would tell me I'm a drunk. I run my own bar, pay for my own bottle, and tip well. I have never abused the waitstaff anywhere being I know what that is like. My house is cleaner than most bars and could pass any health and safety standards. People miss my "sophisticated" drunk parties. Your glass will never be empty with lots of the finest arts and foods. I was raised by the finest of establishment drunks. They had lovely funerals. Part of why nobody tells you, you're a damn drunk. Even my kids did not know all drunks are not slobs, bad parents, or terrible host(ess).