Sadly, not even bad health can make some people stop. You just have to decide for yourself when enough is enough. I still have decided 100%, but I am sick of feeling crap after binging again.
Email me if you need to, take care of you
xx

I think we all know why we end up going back on it. It's a brilliant relaxant. But we know the damage it does. (ooh and the hangovers. I end up pacing for about a day or two with cold sweats and major guilt!)

I'm glad there's someone here similar (at least in age and country) to myself that is sick of falling into the same trap.

Let's beat this bastard! Or get drunk trying! (Bad joke at the end there - sorry!)

In my case it wasn't enough. The minute I link my alcoholism to anything other than a problem with ME - I set myself up to drink again. When I put something between me and my alcoholism, like physcial problems, and link the two - I leave the door open to drink again. If I do that then whenever I'm having an issue with whatever I've linked my drinking to, I'll suddenly be without defense against the first drink. Because I haven't honestly identified my problem. Me. Not me phsyically affected by my alcoholism. Just ME.

Instead I must realize that I'M my problem. Not my bad health. (And yes, I'm physically and irreversably affected by my drinking) I'm the reason my life is messed up. Alcohol is but a symptom of my disease. Just like my bad health is a symptom of my disease. I can't use other things as scapegoats for why I drink. I drink because I'm an alcoholic and for no other reason. Therefore I need to be sober because I'm an alcoholic, and for no other reason. When you're sick of you, not sick of you being sick. There's help. This is a three fold disease: mind, body and spirit. Where are you with the other two?

Good luck my friend.

fenway, I always get sooo much out of your posts!!!!! i hope i continue to grow in ways that i can be of great help some day. thanks

u recently visited a gentleman in the hospital who was in intensive care for a week. His organs all but his heart had shut down completely and he was in severe DTS. due to the grace of god i had the oppertunity to 12th step him on saturday. After all he has been through and nearly dying he believes that if he gets a job he will be fine. He has been in and out of jail and treatment centers for the 18 years and knows that if he dont stop his next drunk is death because he only has 5% liver capacity left. as i talked to him he repeatedly said i know i know but he dont know. It isnt what we know that will keep us sober it is what we do. We have to work some program that has a proven track record of working. For me this is aa. i tryed for years to stay sober by working women and wanting to and it never worked. I started going to aa and working the steps and with a sponsor and today am still sober. So do something get treatment take advice and direction so you have a chance of living.

Once you are a "pickle", you can never be a cucumber again.

A (former) close friend of mine, had a boyfriend who drank himself into a heart attack at 25, was also, sterile, he quit drinking and drugging. 2 years later my girlfriend got pregnant. He was rushed off for tests, The lining of his heart had regrown and he became a daddy. My grandfather stopped drinking at 55 , cirrohsis of the liver. he lived to be 83. So some can heal, But have to quit ALL unhealthy ways. I am still trying. Am eating better, that's a start. But I Am in physical pain, had test at hospital today, will show if kidneys, liver affected. I sure hope if it is, I will have the guts to quit drinking.