My name i Scott and took my first drink around 9 or ten. I know what it is like to be sober(longest was 4 yrs)but i always seem to relapse. The most recent started with getting my wisdom teeth removed and getting a script for vicodin. After that I was wanting that feeling or missed that feeling of being normal. A few months later i had a few beers on vaction. Well I am sure you can guess where that led to. I am still drinking. At first, I would drink a six pack only on weekends now I am back to at least a 12 pack or a case a day. I went to a rehab yesterday and saw a counciler trying to get help. The place seemed like just what i needed, they had a detox with a 7week outpatient counceling.The problem is it cost more than I could afford.(5,000 to 7,000) I am a shy person so i never really liked the 12step because of it. I work 3 differnt jobs and have many people counting on me. I just want to get back to that sober me. I am so disappointed in myself and have also thought of the easy way out, but I would never do it only because of my wife. If it wasnt for her I would probably be dead. She is suffering more than me in my opion. It has got to be hard to watch someone u love destroy themselves. Well that is the quick version of my story and I hope I can get some postive feedback. I hope everything turns out great for everyone(me included)and hopefully i can be sober again. Thx for reading this and love 2 all .
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