they don't understand what a recovering alcoholic is going through. They think because I am NOT drinking, everything is now wonderful for me (and them); that I have miraculously turned into the normal person that I am expected to be. After a meeting I come home, walk through the front door and suddenly feel like an alien again. The people I live with are not family and I don't know them well enough to call them 'friends'. Unfortunately, they have been effected by my drinking and I feel embarrassed, guilty and obligated to wear a facade:)I am now the good girl everyone wants me to be:) I cannot express how I am feeling to anyone I live with and it can be very lonely. Truth is I am struggling. Am very thankful I can come here and tell it how it is.
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