well,here i am again. the first day back to the fold.two years down and ,in my meetings, i was such an "inspiration" for being a living example that no one is to be given up on. yeah, i had a career everyone envied but i was homeless living from coach to couch or shelter to shelter or sleeping a few times in abandoned houses. no one gave me odds that i would be able to come back. too far gone, they said. write her off and i wondered if i died out there would anyone remember how i tried to live? would anyone remember i once was a little girl with dreams. i find myself at the jumping off place and i cannot say how this story will end. my wish is that one day alcoholics are given the same compassion as any other disease. until then, i am lost.embarrassed,ashamed. i need to walk back in those rooms of AA but i am so very discouraged and, yes, afraid . devonh
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