I have been 3days now without a drink.I had decided this past Fri.thatI have to try.I woke up thinking,please God,just let me go this weekend without drinking into oblivion.I was feeling really sad for the past week because my cat ran away,day after Thanksgiving.(I had him for the last 9 years).I keep him indoors always,but in a drunken stuper I had left the garage bay door open.(I hit the automatic open button)and he was gone.I woke up next day looking for him inside and out.Sunday night came,then Mon.,Tues and so on.Needless to say,I spent all that time blaming God,asking why can't I have just a little enjoyment?Must there always be a reprecussion.I could only think how it was all my fault and he's (my cat)probably dead-all because I was drunk.Well,I made it thru Fri.sober.Saturday was very hard.Saturday is the big drinking day for me,you see I do everything Sat.morn.I run errands,grocery shop,pay bills and finish up business reports,etc.Reward being a couple beers that afternoon.I was so on edge all day fighting the urge,afterall It's just a six pack,it's not like I'm gonna get plasterd.I was so irritable that I felt like I was going crazy.Anyway 9:00pm Sat.nite rolled around and all I could think about is that the liquor store closes at 10:00 and if I want to get drunk I better go now.So I got my shoes on,the whole time convincing myself, why not!I said to myself and talking to God outloud,if no one cares then why should I?So with my attitude and self pitty,I unlocked the front door,turned on the porch light and there was my cat looking at me as if to say-it's about time you idiot,I was wondering when you'd open the door! At that moment all I could think to say is thank you God!I took my cat back inside and filled up his food bowl.While he ate like a little piggy,I sat down in my recliner by the fire place and thanked God for the small miracle that he gave me by returning my best friend safely after all that time.I would like to believe it was Gods intervention that night that kept me from drinking.
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