So last night hsbnd got home & was in the worst mood. I had dinner made, house clean, etc. Yet, he was being really rude to me. Saying little comments under his breath. I just coudn't handle it. I wanted to shut him out. I went right for the fridge and grabbed a beer. I went outside with my kids and played with them as I drank it. Later, I went to make my self a vodka tonic. But then I stopped. I thought what was the point. Hsbnd was working in our basement. He wasn't "bugging" me anymore. But there I was alone... no one to stop me. So I jumped on the treadmill and walked. I walked for over an hour. By the time I was done, all I wanted was a shower and some water. I'm proud of myself for not making that 2nd drink. I'm finding the key is to focus on something else instead of that drink. Once the focus is broken, it's a lot harder to stay away.
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